Letting the Shadow Be

I had the experience of something dark and unpleasant suddenly express itself through me. It felt like something from the distant past escaped from its hiding place. Fortunately, I was aware enough to observe it and recognize that it was something from within me that is not who I really am, yet was part of me. It clearly needed to come out.

So often when we feel deep, dark, or intense emotions well up suddenly from some dark corner deep inside us, our natural reaction is to stuff them back down and turn our attention to something else. What we’ve missed then is an opportunity. These things need to come to the surface to be accepted, acknowledged, healed, and released. If that doesn’t happen, they continue to color our experiences with their hurt and fear. Rather than go into an explanation of the process, I’m going to show you how I dealt with one emotional uprising. The two names in the dialog have been changed. The emotion is speaking in the indented paragraph. The first paragraph is my discussion with my Spirit/Higher Self, whose words are in ( ).

“OK, back to the point of this; what is that entity that yelled through me and how do I release it? (love it. Let it be what it is, surround it with love, and set it free. Let it out. That’s all it really needs. To be allowed to be what it is and set free.)(just don’t get caught up in the emotions of it. Be the detached observer. Its feelings are not your feelings. Don’t take them on.)

Entity of anger, it’s OK. I accept you as you are. You may express yourself safely now. What do you want to say?
I want out. I don’t like this feeling burdened. I hurt! I want to let go. I want to relax and be free, released. Susan and David hurt me. They have taken so much away from me. They hurt my body and made my heart hurt. They disappoint me and let me down. They don’t help me. They don’t care about me. They should. They should love me and thank and appreciate me for all I’ve done for them and all I suffered for/because of them. They don’t seem to care how much they’ve hurt me. I want to cry. Why don’t you let me cry? I’m sorry I’m so angry, and hurt, and afraid. This is all more than I can carry.

Put it down. It’s OK. You can put it all down now. You don’t have to carry anything anymore. Just let go. I know you hurt and you’ve been afraid and overwhelmed. It’s OK to feel that way, but you don’t have to anymore. I recognize and acknowledge your pain and sadness, and your regrets. I acknowledge you. I welcome you to my awareness. You are part of me and I accept you fully. You are allowed to be. I embrace you and your honesty. I love you. I can let you go now. You’ve lived your purpose. Go now to your right and perfect place and expression. Go now in love. I bless you and support your highest expression with love. You are free.”